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Posted:Jun 13, 2016 11:41 am
Last Updated:Mar 24, 2017 5:02 pm
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These messages will be private ... set up for those who can't email or standard members ... only between me and you... No worries ... ask Me anything ....
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Coming Out Of My Shell....
Posted:Mar 22, 2017 4:19 pm
Last Updated:Mar 23, 2017 6:26 pm
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As I stated in a previous post .... I put myself an ad on CL and a Vanilla Dating Site..... This is what Happened....LOL

I Never Got To even Visit the vanilla dating site ... within a matter of 3 hours ...my mailbox was blowing up !! From CL...( about 260 ) .. I quickly scanned through some .... those that didn't follow directions and include certain info ... deleted ...

I read about 5 more and came across this ' Hey , Girl ... I'm Sure You've gotten a gazillion replies ... and he went into detail about himself ... the best thing was the big shitty grin pic .... only face pic which was nice... beautiful smile ... looked like a happy man...

So ... I gave him my k..i,,k.. name and another guy who seemed ok .... then I gave up looking at email ... LOL.... I can't deal with too many men at one time.... I get them all confused ... anyway the second guy was only 46 .... he immediately showed his real self .... deleted... now I'm only chatting with one .... he's a couple years younger ... very mature... seems sincere... passed the checks ... And we are supposed to meet this weekend... not sure of specifics yet ...

I've lost a bit of weight .. even though I feel great ... I'm seeing more WRINKLES.... I'm very concerned on meeting anyone ... I'm shy anyway and don't really wear makeup.... but I believe I may have to ... I'm so nervous about the meeting ....In real life I'm sure I look much older ... the pics make ppl look younger for real...

I'm attracted to the personality ... but Men are a Different Breed

I've tried to connect with older men ... don't get me wrong ... I can click very well with them.... the Big Issue Is ....Most Will Not Text or Do Kink ... some have given me some harsh insults.... when I mention I like a little kink ... and it's In my ad !
So they obviously thought they could change my mind .... I don't know ... and I'm sure that word got the attention of most of the 260 replies....

I've deleted the ad ... I'll give this guy a whirl...lol...if it doesn't work out ... I'll concentrate on my business for a while .... I really should have my life in order before getting into anything ... we'll see.... ( Lol... he says that a lot )

Anyway ,, I can say I tried ... it's not a pleasant task... Dating ...UGGG

I'll keep you all posted ... he doesn't read any blogs ... so Good For Me ... I can be free to say anything ...lol

Update.... I asked where we were meeting ... He said ' where ever I'd Like '...... I said ' In The Dark ' LMAO .... Can't stop laughing right now to continue plans... omg....
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WOW.... Who Knew Losing Weight Saves You Money !!
Posted:Mar 22, 2017 3:15 pm
Last Updated:Mar 23, 2017 9:53 am
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I still have a few more pounds to go .... but evidently ... men are noticing .... I got a flat tire on my way home today ....

All Kinds of Men Stopped to Help .... Was very Flattering ... they helped me get to the air pump at the station and then the shop on the next block.....

The Men at the Shop Were Equally SWEET ..... Thank You Homer ( owner ) ... I was able to get a tire ,,, mounted and all for $35 .... granted it wasn't new ,,, but looks Great and Got Me Back on The Road !!

Homer took my number to text me when more tires came in ... I need another in front .... What A Nice Man !! I didn't have to wait long either ...15 minutes or so... I wear tank tops / wife beaters ....lol.... and capris for work so I was not that pretty .... But Appreciated All The Help !!! Restored my faith in Mankind ...
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PORN Must Pay Good Money !!
Posted:Mar 21, 2017 2:55 pm
Last Updated:Mar 23, 2017 9:53 am
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Funniest thing happened a little bit ago.... I have an ad for housekeeping .... I usually don't get much of anything from it....BUT.. Today ...

This Guy Emails saying he needed a bi-weekly cleaning on his Condo .... I asked my normal questions ..... he says ' one last thing ' ....lol..... ' I work from home ,, is it ok if I'm here while you're working ' ... I said ' Sure ' ... he said " I do adult porn in my office ,, door will be closed ..."( I'm wondering if there is any other kind than adult ) So ... I said " I will tell you like I told the Home Nudist ... I am strictly business ,, no bull .." He said " ok... but have you ever did any porn ? " I said ' No' , He Says " I'll give you $500 to change your mind " ... May I Send You a Pic Of My office happenings now ? " ..... I said ' Do Not Send Me Any Pics ... I'm afraid You'll have to find another house cleaner...Good Luck To You '

Hell ,,, Is this a normal way they scout for women ... this man didn't even know what I looked like .... apparently Porn doesn't care ... $500 to change my mind ?! Wonder How Much They Get To Perform ? Damn ,,, can you imagine the germs ... is all I could think ... I can't do....lol...
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A Very Sad Tale ....
Posted:Mar 21, 2017 8:55 am
Last Updated:Mar 22, 2017 4:51 am
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Married ... widowed ... A woman moved to Florida to care for an ailing Father ...

What was expected to be only a couple of years ... turned into 13 yrs.... but Happy and Content .....

The Cooking ,Cleaning ,,, and working Filled Her world .... no time to even think about dating or sex ....

The years flew by ....

When the Father passed .... depression pretty much consumed her for a couple of years...

No Family to speak of .... she concentrated on her business... surviving ... starting over ....

After the depression started to cease ... she decided to join a dating site ... to basically get new friends and hopefully chat buddies ...

She ,,, innocently ,,, started chatting with a man .... loved his sense of humor ... talked for a while through text... finding out he was married was no matter to her.. ..as she wasn't thinking of having a sexual thing with him ....She told him so ...

Many chats with others turned out boring or pushy ... so she grew real tired of trying to hook up with a decent man... but in the meantime ... loved chatting with this ' married ' man ...

She discussed with him that she could never ' betray ' another woman like that or cause any problems in a marriage ... He agreed ... then She said " I'm thinking a married man is a bit safer than these ' players ' out there .... germ wise .... the Husband's not gonna want to take any germs to the Wife ....

Now ,,, Since she wasn't looking for marriage... just wanting to explore ... they started discussing kinks .... oh they clicked so well... amazing ...

An agreement was made never to even get the wife suspicious ... or she was gone .... so they met ....Both feeling that sex would keep the marriage together ,,, because sex was not happening at home....

Was a Wonderful ... Absolutely Magical time .... 4 years .... Love was not to be a part of ... just sex ... exploring ...once a week ... sometimes once every 2 weeks ... they couldn't get enough of each other .... wanting more and more ... and knowing that they Had to Wait for all to be safe .... caused them to connect through chat even more .... they went through tragedies together ,,, heartbreak from losing pets.... etc... life ...

She liked to video each session ... she enjoyed watching them ... they both enjoyed porn ... she edited some and added music .... He asked for a SD card with some on ... so he could watch .... after knowing him for 3 years she felt he was being very cautious and trusted to give him a copy ....

She had grown very fond of him .... some would call Love.... but She refused to admit it ... he wasn't available ....

One day he tells her that the wife is suspicious.... she was accusing him of watching porn that she had forbade and saw an update on his phone for a messenger she wasn't familiar with .... she asked him what it was ... he played ignorant ...
She,,, Mistress,, told him they were on break for a while .... told him to fix things at home first ... Her conscious couldn't handle the wife being suspicious ...

Then Tragedy .... a few months following .... the wife checks his phone again...

He had forgotten that he was watching the video on his phone ...the Wife saw... He was thrown out ... she wanted to Kill Him ....

Lives are ruined .... Life is in Turmoil..... Was it worth the trip .... Is It Worth The Final Stage ....
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Profile ...Non Members
Posted:Mar 20, 2017 4:37 pm
Last Updated:Mar 21, 2017 7:23 am
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Maybe I should say ... just in case .. what I'm looking for in a post ....
Probably wouldn't hurt ...

I prefer a taller man than myself ... at least 5'9" .... Clean Cut ... I don't like long long hair on a man... He should be Dominate ...kinda ' always ' .... I like stern , loving ,, trusting of course ... AND UNATTACHED.... Not Married either ... I have been down that road ... No..Thank You..

Number one is probably a good sense of Humor ....

He Must Have a Healthy Sexual Appetite ... and Like to Explore
I Don't like Scat .. or Needle Play ... No Blood Or Body fluids ...
Must be monogamous and Safe ....

I believe in a connection first ... before I meet anyone ... I'm a bit shy ... even though you can't tell in my texts...lol...

Sometimes it may take a while ... so slow down ... laugh ... chat ..
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Dating and Screening ... Pain !!!
Posted:Mar 20, 2017 4:16 pm
Last Updated:Mar 21, 2017 9:02 am
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To Get Me Out Of My Slump ... I joined a dating site,,, vanilla dating site... I had a profile there but hid it .. but I think it's time...( to face the aggravation..lol)

It's exhausting reading all the emails .... and most don't give you any info ... so it's back and forth ... I say to myself " Why Do I Even Bother telling you that I smoke ? Why Do I bother Saying Please be over 50 and Mature ? Why would I specifically say I use K..K... to communicate ... I do not give out my number .... don't demand it ... dummy .. You ain't my Dom Yet ...lol

One Guy got very insulting ..... I Hate This ... I try to be patient ... but some try my patience ! They get nasty when you ask if they're married .... they get nasty when you won't send more pics .... Some won't even send a face pic ... I want to see a face to picture who I'm talking to ... not the cock pic...

Sure ... I don't wanna hook up with this type anyway .. but damn.... this is probably why some women ' pretend ' to be Miss Goody 2 Shoes....

I'm not perfect ... I have flaws and issues ... and a Stubborn Bitch when I feel wronged ... LOL..... I am a Taurus ... for real...

I Just want a Decent Man that is Dominant , Humorous , and Trusting .... Needle in a Hay Stack ... Right ? I wanna explore ... damn it ...
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When Things Go Terribly WRONG....
Posted:Mar 17, 2017 1:22 pm
Last Updated:Mar 19, 2017 4:45 am
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I'm not wanting to go into specifics ... It Would take way too long....

I've Lived my life trying never to hurt anyone .... always trying to be nice ... I would go out of my way for most people .... too nice sometimes...

No Matter what preventive measures I have used .... no matter how hard I tried to prevent anyone getting hurt ....

IT Happened .... I have ...indirectly ... unintentionally ,,,, regrettably.... Caused Someone ... A Whole Lot Of Pain....

I Was Horrified When I found out ... I am still nauseous when I think of the Pain I've caused....

I Can't Fix It ... It's Way Too Horrid .... I feel a Sense of Doom.... knowing Karma is Real .... I am so Unhappy with myself ...

It's the worse scenario that could have happened by ' accident ' ....

Lord Knows I Never Meant Any Harm .... But He Also Knows I Did...

I've never been so disappointed in myself ...

It's Gonna Take Me A While To Forgive ... I will never forget
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ME And Pills....
Posted:Mar 14, 2017 3:06 am
Last Updated:Mar 16, 2017 11:37 am
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All My Life ... I've hated taking 'pills ' .... even vitamins.... I Don't Trust Them ... Never Will... I'd Prefer A Natural Cure ...

I laughed to myself as my Dr. recommended a BP pill.... " It's Free " .... Made Me Even MORE Suspicious of .....

It ... Totally,,, Pisses me off... When There is a ' Proven ' Natural Cure .... Insurance doesn't cover or acknowledge .... BUT They Will Gladly ' Give ' You ' Free ' a Pill with attached ' possible side affects ' in small writing ....

Natural way to fix my BP .... lose the excess weight ... eat like a responsible human being ...exercise.... Pay attention to My Body .... ( I don't need to pop a pill )
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Menopause and Marriage ....
Posted:Mar 13, 2017 2:30 pm
Last Updated:Mar 15, 2017 2:41 am
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I've Written about Women and Menopause before ... I am not sure I really said everything that bugs me about it ....

This is just My opinion ... as always ... I know a lot of women may not see it my way ... that's fine ... If you have something to add ....or a view point ... I'm all Ears ...

I had a hysterectomy early in life at age 26 .... due to medical issues .. So I've Went Through This ' Menopause ' period ..... early in life ...

I've tried my hardest to understand all the Women that ' claim ' to be going through it ..... All The Ailments they seem to have ' added ' .... the symptoms seem to go on and on .... every year ...

There are married couples having huge fights over ... Most ,,sadly,, ending in Divorce ...

I Remember the ' dryness ' .... the lack of desire .... but I still ' Loved ' My Husband and I adored kissing and hugging him .... There Were Fights ... lots .. where I would argue over stupid things...I remember once... knowing it was my hormones out of wack .... He looked at me... grabbed me and hugged me... till all I could do was cry and apologize....

Most times we could work through it .... I had spoken to my doctor but I refuse to take hormone pills so I searched and searched ... Years Later I found an All Natural cure ...It's out there Women ...and Men ... it works ...

My point is... I can understand not wanting to go to counseling ... if I had explained my sexual desires to a Vanilla Counselor ... I'm kinda sure what reaction I'd get ... most couples aren't gonna want to discuss their private sex life with a stranger.... but to research and Try to find Help .... wouldn't Kill Anyone .... If the Women Really Loves The Man ... wouldn't they try everything possible to help their sex life ...


What If The Tables Were Turned .... And the Wife was in her sexual Prime ... but the husband developed problems ... I would hope couples could use other methods to satisfy each other ... toys .. oral ?

Then ..... In the Back Of My Mind ... I Wonder .. Is Menopause Intensified by A Vanilla / Bored Sex Life .... Every woman ,, they say ,,, has different symptoms... some have many more problems than others ... Some Experience Severe Changes ...
I ,, personally .. believe women ' Blame ' Menopause on many of their ' bad ' characteristics ...

Might It depend on the amount of Boredom they've had ? I can't Imagine a Master / Sub couple having these issues .... I can't imagine a woman ' Loving ' someone ,,but ' can't stand the sight of Him ' ,,, because she's not feeling ' sexy ' .... I Can't Imagine A Women Not Seeking A Solution .... Just Giving Up ... Explore the Options ... What Do You Have To Lose ?

That's Why I Wonder ,,, also .. why People bother getting Married .... People Change ... Everyone Gets Old ......

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