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Posted:Jun 13, 2016 11:41 am
Last Updated:Jul 18, 2017 3:34 am
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These messages will be private ... set up for those who can't email or standard members ... only between me and you... No worries ... ask Me anything ....
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Obstacles ....
Posted:Jul 16, 2017 5:46 am
Last Updated:Jul 17, 2017 10:16 am
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Life Is Full Of Obstacles .... Big And Small .... How Many Obstacles or Hindrances Do We Allow To ' Interrupt ' Life's Journey .... Your Life ...?

How Much Do We Tolerate .... How Much Is ' Ok ' .... ?

I Try So Hard Not To Judge People .... Not To Jump to Conclusions ... Not To ' Compare ' One Human Being With Another ....

But .... Don't We Experience Some Things To ' Learn ' From Them .... ? ! So That We Don't Repeat Mistakes ....

Were They Mistakes ? Were They Our ' Destiny ' ? Were We Put In A ' Position ' For A Reason ?

Ya ... Life's Kinda Complicated .....
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What ' DEFINES ' You....
Posted:Jul 11, 2017 3:23 am
Last Updated:Jul 16, 2017 3:39 am
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Did You Ever Wonder .... If A Stranger Met You ... Let's Say Three Different Times... How Would That Person Describe You ....

I Recently Met a Couple ... Second Time Meeting Them ... SO .. Two Out Of Three ... I Would Describe Them As ' Low Class ,,, Arrogant ... Heavy Drinkers ... With a Side Of Drugs ' .... The Type Of People That I Like To Avoid .... Not Wanting To ' Judge ' anyone... Just Don't Like Drama That Liquor / Drugs .... Usually Produces .... Been Down That Road ... Don't Care To Revisit .... Thank You...

They Seemed To Brag About All Their ' Worldly ' Goods .... I Gathered They Thought a Big House and Such Made Them a Wonderful Contribution to Society .... Everyone Should Love Them ..... I Did Not ...

I Realize A Lot Of People On This Site ' Define ' Me by The Red Fishnet with Titties .... I Hope If A Person In Real Life Met Me I Would Be Described As A Decent ,,, Working .... Kind Human Being .....

I Would Not Want ' Material ' Things ,,, Or Titties,, to Over Rule Any Judgement Of Me .... I'm Not Wanting To ' Impress ' anyone .... I Don't Need To Drink Excessively To Deal With Life Or People ,,, And I Prefer To Stay Clear Of Such ..... I Wanna Be Free To Be Myself .... I Like Being Around Happy People .... But ' Naturally ' Happy .... Not Happy Cause You Have A New Car And A Twelve Pack In the Frig.....
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Everything Has It's Place....
Posted:Jul 10, 2017 4:20 am
Last Updated:Jul 13, 2017 4:41 pm
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I've Been Very Busy ,,, Moving My Things In and Sorting Things Around The House ... Years Of Being a Bachelor Have Caused So Much To Be ' Out Of Place ' ....

I Like Things In ' Order ' ... Makes My Life Easier .... I Want Tools Outside ( my tools belong in my kitchen junk drawer 😉 ).... Dishes Inside ... Etc...

Seems Every Thing Is Scattered ... so ... It's Taking Me a While ... Beings I'm Not Really Moving Very Quickly ... Lol... May Take A Couple Years ...No Worries

I'm Enjoying Every Minute .... I Get To Cook In Between Cleaning and Sorting ... What Else Could a Person Want ?! What I 'Need ' Is Taken Care Of ... Extremely Well ... In Between The Other .... There He Seems Very Organized ... Lol 😙

So... I'm Still In ' Heaven ' Over Here ... Still Having An Internet Issue ... Hope To Be Up and Writing Full Speed Then

Gotta Run....
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What Makes You COMFORTABLE....
Posted:Jul 5, 2017 4:23 am
Last Updated:Jul 10, 2017 4:29 am
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I Think Everyone Has Different Levels Of Comfort..... Different Things That Bring Us Peace and Harmony .....

For Me ,,,,, It's The Stress Being Lifted From Worrying If Enough Work and Money Would Come In to Make My Bills On Time .... I Prayed The Van Would Stay In One Piece Till I Could Save For Another ..... I Prayed My Old Body Would Keep On Going ....

I Am Not Sure I Can Describe the Huge Weight Off My Shoulders ,,,,, Just a Simple Thing Like A Helping Hand ....
Maybe It Would Help to Tell You... I've Always Did Things ( Life ) Alone ..... I Really Didn't Depend On Anyone... I Preferred It That Way .... I Knew I Could Depend On Myself .... I Knew How I Wanted It Done and Didn't Need Anyone ... Many Years Of This Caused Me To ,,, Not Only Dismiss Anyone That Offered Any Help .... But Continue To Stay In That World Of Solitude ....

I'd Met So Many People That Took Advantage .... I Withdrew From Meeting New Friends as I Grew Older .... I Did Not Have Time To Be Bothered ... I Kept Everyone at a Distance ...

When I Met This ' New ' Guy ...
What Attracted Me Most Was His Confidence .... He Didn't Put On An Act Or Pretend to Be Someone He Wasn't ....
Some Men Feel They Are Upfront and Honest .... But Seems I Always Could Tell Something Was Amiss....
Kinda Took Me Years Of Observing ..... But Some Men Kinda Hide Behind a Role ... Being a Gentleman To Women ,,, Treating Them Like Gold .... But at Home Alone They May Be Secretly a Mean ,,, Self - Centered ... Deceitful ... Very Unhappy Human Being ...

I Was Looking For a Happy Human Being .... Someone That Was Comfortable In Their Own Skin .... So To Say...

I Watched This Guy Walking and Wondered Why He Had A Sorta ' Strut ' When He Walked .... Almost Like a Skip ... He Acted Like He Was Happy .... He Smiled Continuously .... He Laughed All The Time ... He Was Actually Satisfied With Himself and His Company Never Caused Any Drama or Problems ... If Anyone Seemed to Do Something He Didn't Like ,, He Took Care Of It By Talking Calmly and Nicely to Them .... But Sternly .... I Was Waiting For His Temperament to Change ... His Voice To Raise ....Wow... Amazing ... that There Is A Man ' In Control ' Of His Life ... His World ...

Something ' Drew ' Me To This Man From the First Day... I Loved His Laugh ... He Didn't Need to Act Like Someone He Wasn't ...

I Didn't Think I Would Ever Experience Such Content ... I'm Living With Him Now ... I've Not Given Up Any Of My Independence .... He's So Very Comfortable With Me Doing My Own Thing ....

I've Never Had Anyone Help Me Unload Groceries Before .... and Never Expected Help ... Huge Amount of Help... Moving ... I Can't Even Explain What A Joy It Is To See The Puppies So Free and Happy ... They Now Have A Huge Yard To Wander and a New ' Big ' Play Friend .... His Dog's Head Is the Size Of Their Whole Body ... He Will ' Herd ' Them In The House When They Go Towards The Gate ... Lol...

I Am Now Able To Concentrate On More Than The Next Dollar ... I've Stopped Worrying about Little Things ( That Took A While To Adjust to ) .... I Know This Man Has My Back ... As Well As I Have His .... Our Lives Seem To Intertwine and Enhance Each Others.....
I ABSOLUTELY Am Overjoyed !!!
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OH... How I Love Thee ?
Posted:Jul 4, 2017 6:11 am
Last Updated:Jul 10, 2017 4:30 am
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Gee... I've Hesitated Writing ..... I Think Because I Know I've Changed .... Even Though I've Tried To Stay The Same .... Tried To Think Like I Always Have.... Remain In My ' Own ' Little,, Lonely,,, World... In My Head ... Always Feeling Like A Misfit .... Staying Quietly Closed Off From The World ... You Know The Drill...

Well.... Like A Romance Novel .... The Crap No One Really Believes Comes True ... I've Found Myself ,,,, Mentally and Physically In Love ....

That's Right ... I'm No Longer Afraid Of That Word !! If You've Read My Posts ,,, You'd Have Noticed How I've Avoided The Whole Intimacy Thing ... Never Using That Word Love In A Relationship... ( I Kinda Bet There's A Lot Of Others Who Do The Same )

What Most Of You Probably Never Knew .... Some Of Us Take It To One Higher Level Of Seclusion..... Like Never Kissing Or Hugging a Person With Actual....
' Heartfelt ' Feeling ...

Hell ... I Even Dated A Married Man To Avoid Getting ' Attached ' ... I Didn't Want It .... I Only Needed Sex.... Was Good Enough For Me ... I Was Way Too Busy To Get Into A Relationship .... I Had Goals ... I Was Not Gonna Let Someone Interfere ... Besides ,, The Window Of Time I Had Available For a ' Love ' Thing Was Way Too Small .... Would Certainly Never Be Satisfactory For Any Man To Tolerate .... Love / Relationships Required a Lot Of Work and Time...

Well.... Damn ... I Was So Totally Wrong .... Stupid ...

I've Such A Lot To Say .... Too Much For One Post ... But ... In Short ..

It Is True ... I am Witness ... A True ' Connection ' .... Comes Easy .... Flows ... Is No ' Work ' At All ... Fits Right In to Your Schedule ... No Stress... No Worries ... Makes Life Worthwhile .... And Yes ,,, Changes You ... To Content ,, Happy ... Totally Fulfilled ....
A TRUE BLESSING !!
I Was One Of The Very Lucky Ones To Find .... Even Though It Took Me Till My Late 50's
I Am So Very Grateful For Everything ....
Yes... I've Changed .... My Heart Is Filled With Joy .... I Do Hope I Don't Turn Into One Of 'those Mushy ' Love Writers .... Lol .... I'll Apologize Ahead Of Time.... Cause I Sorta Wanna ' Spread ' My Joy .... My Love ....
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Stuck In The VANILLA WORLD....
Posted:Jun 28, 2017 3:53 am
Last Updated:Jul 16, 2017 2:40 pm
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.....AND LOVING EVERY SECOND !!!!

Yep.... I Have Found A Man ,,,, So Compassionate,,, Such a Beatiful Human Being ... and I Am Completely Satisfied With a Vanilla Man ... with a Side of Kink ...

I'll Tell the Story When I Get My Laptop Up and Running....

WE Finally Consummated Our Relationship,,, I know ... I Was Beginning To Think He Wasn't Attracted To Me ....
But ,,, I See His Admiration in His Face ... Amazing ...
He Treats Me Like a Queen ..... His Temperment is So Much Different Than Any Other Man I've Ever Known .... He Makes Me Laugh From Sun Up To Sun Down ! I Can Tell Him Anything .... He Does Not Get Upset , Perturbed or Indifferent....

BEST OF ALL ..... He Loves My Cooking ,,, He Says I Can Have At It !!! Yeah !!! I Am In Heaven ... !!

He Absolutely Appreciates Everything I Do ... !!!

I've Never Left Here Since I Came Over Last Thursday !😃
I'm TOTALLY Comfortable .... Totally Happy and Content ... No Stress ...

There Was One Catch ... He Absolutely Refused To Be My Sex Toy .... Lol ... He Insisted On Intimacy First ... !!!
Wow 😚
Who Knew I Needed That .... Lol
I am Running Behind... Just Wanted To Fill Everyone in ...
I'll Write More Later ,,, Maybe ... 😋

You,,,so called... Sirs and Masters ,, Could Learn A Lot From This Little,, Skinny ,,Tattooed,,, Vanilla Guy 😉

I'm on Cloud Nine . ... I. REALLY,,,,Really... Really ... Like Him And I Think He Really Likes Me... I See It ,,, Feel It ,,, Live It ,,, LOVE It ... I Will Always Be Grateful To Him For Making Me Feel Again ,,, Feel From My Insides.. which were so very Empty ... For So Very Long 😕 ,,, Which I've Hidden So Well 😋
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INTIMACY ..... STAY THE DISTANCE...
Posted:Jun 22, 2017 4:18 am
Last Updated:Jul 16, 2017 2:56 pm
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Certain Things Make Us Realize .... It's The Intimacy Involved... That Holds Us Back ..... Certain Things Kinda ' Require ' Intimacy ,,,,

Well... More Closeness than Normal ...

So... I've Noticed My Brain ...or Mind ... Or Heart ( deep in there ) ... BLOCKS Certain Things....

Yet... another ' Issue '... I May Be Forced To Deal With ... This Guy Wants to Get Really ' Close ' ..... He's Not ' Pushy ' at All.... It's Just Something Is ' Strongly ' PULLING Me Back .... Possibly that Little Devil On My Shoulder ...

I Can't Even Tell You How Many Years I've Been Avoiding .... and Never Had any Problem..... Is it necessary ? 😕

I'm Thinking This Guy Is Wanting It More Than Most ... He May Be A Challenge ...
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SomeBody's Gonna Need To Be Patient....
Posted:Jun 22, 2017 3:43 am
Last Updated:Jul 16, 2017 2:40 pm
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I Have a bit of a problem.... Well.... Lucy and Desi ... have a Bit Of A Problem...

I Didn't Think It Important enough... to Mention How Spoiled My Puppies are... Who Would Have thought that Their Cute Little Faces Wouldn't Get Them Everything They Wanted ?

I'm Just Not Sure How To Break It To Them.... They are Gonna Have to Sleep On the Floor Saturday Night....

This Guy Refuses Any Dogs In The Bed...
I Mean... I thought Because His Dog Is a Big Dog ( Jim Floyd ..lol ) That's Why He Made Him Sleep On the Floor ... but ...

Absolutely ... NO DOGS IN BED .... Oh Boy....
My Poor Little Guys ... They are Doxis.... They Like to Cuddle ... Who Could Resist ?

I Tried .... He Said Absolutely .. No Dogs In Bed.... Omg...

I am Not Sure What I'm Gonna Do With Them ... I know as Soon as He closes His Eyes .... they Will Sneak up in that Bed ... and I don't wanna Tie Them Up ...

They're Gonna Have to Pour on The Charm ... I'm Not Sure This Guy Is Gonna Change His Mind .... Jim Floyd Is Kinda Big ... Maybe They Can Snuggle Up To Him ... Not Like It Happens Every Day ...

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BAD BOY Image ....
Posted:Jun 21, 2017 4:39 am
Last Updated:Jul 16, 2017 2:41 pm
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I Had To Laugh At Myself .... Thinking Dad Would Be Rolling In His Grave .... Knowing I'm Messin' With A Man That Looks Like Such a Bad Boy....!!

We Were Brought Up So Narrow Minded ... More From My Mother's Side Than My Father' s .....

My Mother Was Pure German .... My Father Pure Polish ...
My Mother Hated Anyone That Was Not Caucasian.... I Remember My Father Actually Rescuing a Black Guy ( That He Had Called To Pick Up A Junk Car ) that My Mother Had ' Released ' Our Dogs On..... Horrific ...

Now ... I'm Sure It Was Just In-bedded In Her From The Mother That Raised Her.... My Grandmother Could've Been Hitler's Mother .... She Referred to Us Half Polish Grandkids as ' Little Bitches ' .... that's really all I remember Of Her.. Interesting Story How She Died ... Though... Talk About KARMA.... I'll tell you some day...lol..

Anyway ... We Were Led to Believe... Like Almost Every Girl..... that The Bad Boy Type Are Nothing But Trouble.... Avoid At All Costs... You Will End Up In Hell... Well.. You Get The Drift ...

I... Being the ' Daddy's ' girl that I Was .... Never Wanted to See Disappointment On My Dad's Face ....

As I Think About It Now .... He'd Probably Have That Little Smirk On His Face ... Knowing I've Always Been the ' Rebel ' .... Always Did Things My Way ... Never Caring How People Think .... I Actually Believe He'd Be Happy That I'm Looking After My Own Happiness ..... Always Proud ... I Take After Him ...

In Real Life .... Him and My Mother Would Be Having a Big Drag Out Fight .... Her Telling Him to Whoop My Ass .... Him Walking Away ....
Dad Never Whooped Me ....
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