I'm here because i have a need, not a want, nor a desire, but something stronger than that. My need isn't something i would describe as safe, or necesserily sane, but is sufficently strong that i find myself required to set anything approaching reasonableness, or hope of a normal life, aside.
My need is to give up control of myself & my life and beyond that, to give it to someone who will prove their control with complete abuse of it and me, both mentally and physically.
I'm looking for a life where anguish is my only blanket and torment my pillow.
I'm not seeking happiness, pleasure, satisfaction, or what can normally be conceived as fulfillment, at least not for myself. I seek someone who would enjoy the destruction of a person on several levels and who is prepared to do that, because they can and would enjoy doing it.
What can i offer ? More than i state here, intelligence and a little charm included i hope, but this introduction shouldn't be too long. One thing i can offer is a promise not to enjoy many of the activities forced on me, for my suffering to be complete and genuine. For all intents and purposes i would say i have no limits. Though in truth no one can have none, to the fullest extent i can submitt to things i absolutely commit to. My no limits means that i want to have none and for you to have none either.
Having said that, there are some BDSM activities i can enjoy, to various extents, but many that i simply will not and even knowing that, i wish to surrender to them.
There are people who i'm sure can inspire me to drop everything to run to be at their feet, i'm able to relocate relatively easily, but before i do that i would like to try and ensure that we're both going in the same direction first. I would be pleased to absolutely prove that i am genuine in non BDSM related ways whilst we talk about the direction we would want to travel. My eventual owner should know that i wasn't simply an internet slut before i belonged to them and that my gift to them has been preserved and is complete.
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My Ideal Person:
Someone for whom the thought of another sobbing from the continuous suffering they inflict would make them smile inside, or fill them with glee.
Someone who wants to go further than is acceptable.
Perhaps you have thought about doing this, but set it aside. Perhaps you want it inside, but consider it to far and couldn't do that. Please then, if so, take the chance to write me. There are practical ways to make this a reality and if we're right for each other i'll work with you to make it be... it's something i very much need.
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