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As a departure from the norm here, I'll start by telling a little about my "vanilla" self. I'm the father of adult sons, I enjoy hiking, vegetable gardening and the outdoors, I cook, enjoy movies and music (learning the upright bass), and I'm a big reader, especially of Science fiction, History and Historical fiction. Above all, I'm looking for something long term, if possible.
And now back to our regular programming...
I have tasted- briefly- of submission, but no one has yet truly immersed me in it- I have not yet been offered that opportunity. In fact, my relationships usually put me in the more dominant role, despite my wishes otherwise. I'm looking for someone who can break that pattern. I'm willing to be directed.
I believe an accomplished Domme needs to have a bit of a mean streak, no matter how roughly or tenderly she likes to play. This raises the question-- Can a truly loving relationship develop between a Domme and sub, or is it just co-dependency? I would like to believe it is possible. I am here to explore that possibility, and my own nature, with the help of those here who are willing to direct, guide, and train me. I am untrained, and relatively inexperienced, though I have mulled over many scenes in my mind over the years. I am not into extreme pain or humiliation, though I recognize these as necessary tools of a dominant. I am kind of strong-willed, so these tools will no doubt need to be employed in my training. Though I do have limits, I hope my future domme will know how to push me beyond those limits to places I never imagined Id want to go, but would be brought to my knees begging for the privilege. Take me deeper into the darkness! Im also not into real degradation. Life is bitter enough as it is, and I do not believe myself to be an unworthy creature .
Above all, however, I realize this is about me serving you. If all I got was gratification of my needs, it wouldnt really be submission, would it? I have always felt pent-up, inhibited, under control, and not really free (sexually and otherwise). The craving I have for submission tells me that it is by submitting I will finally taste freedom, I will finally experience the divine.
Please drop me a line if you are an understanding, patient, loving Domme, or if you are an outright Terror who wants to break me.
( Im not sure yet which is the proper approach for me.) Discretion re: D/s is a must (please).
In addition to delving into my hidden desires, etc, I am also looking for someone new to spend my days and nights with, both here and in other, more vanilla avenues. I am willing to meet with players and pros, simply to get the experience, but I am ultimately looking for a long term bond, a relationship...even love. What form will this finally take? D/s or vanilla? Thats what this journey is all about.
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My Ideal Person:
I'm looking for a Mistress who can take the kernel of my fantasies, and , bending them to her will, make them even greater for both of us. I have no desire to "top from the bottom", but to totally surrender to Her contol.
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